O V E R W H E L M and Multiple Kids
To say today was something out of a comic would be true.
Somewhere around 5:18am I knew the day wasn’t going to go as planned.
So I controlled what I could, cried when I needed too and laid under the Christmas tree when it was too much! ANXIOUS to the point of NO action… anyone know that world!
Have you ever laid under your tree and looked up the tree. The twinkling lights, the fleks of shimmer… its pretty magical and very calming! So when I needed clarity, a minute or a breath — this is where I came.
The truth is everyday is hard BUT this hard is almost my greatest joy! Raising four small humans who are totally unique and challenging in their own way is exhausting and rewarding! I feel guilty a lot — how can I be a better mom, give them more one on one time, why am I always in the kitchen, I raised my voice again, I wasn’t patient enough, I didn’t get on the ground and play enough, enough, enough, enough…
Guess what the tree told me today… I am ENOUGH. In all my flaws, in all my forgetful moments, in the way I run our home… perfect… absolutely not but ENOUGH. YES! This tree… flawed, crooked, needs more decorations, kind of dry but enough for us yes!
We have to tell ourselves more that we are enough, that someone’s opinion of us is none of our business and that we are doing the best we can! Hold on dear ones… its a wild ride and tomorrow is a new day!!!