Every day I get up and face new challenges, new questions, new “can I really rise up to that next thing in front of me” feelings. I’m just like anyone else and mothering 8 babies is daunting. There‘s a whole lot of falling short by my own standards even if I’m ignoring all the voices outside. There’s just one me and between the pregnancy, kids, business, relationships, ministry, and all the hats that includes, I had a meltdown last week. Like couldn’t stop crying for more than a few minutes together for days and my kids were asking if I was going to be okay as hard as I tried to pull it together for them.
But Jesus. And prayer. And people I trusted to hold me up. And oils to help my physical body and brain reset. And supplements because at a point you have to refuel when under stress or the breakdown continues because we are one person - body, soul, and spirit. And habits. I can’t stress how important it is that we have a default, go-to of fighting for more than survival. We have to know so deeply where our Source is that it takes no energy to fall on it. Where it is the most familiar to run to the Home of our souls. Because sometimes the energy won’t be there, and in that place we won’t be able to prepare. No time can be wasted. No time to be off our guard or simply existing in comfort. The simpler, “easier” moments are fully relying on Him for the preparation so that in the struggle moments I am ready, not to power through, but to fall in the right place where I find a God who shows me again who HE says I am. Who I am becoming through Him. The purpose He has created me for. And that is all that matters.
And that is where all lasting fulfillment is found.
And that is where these 8 miracles will find what they need - not in me.
And THAT is the freedom of motherhood. 📷: ❤️