This freaked me out, this freaked me out massively!! Continuation from the previous post.
The only snack I managed was the belvita biscuit. By around 2pm my husband was frustrated I could sense it. I hadn’t eaten anything else. He suggested to go home as he was tired, I was also extremely tired, my knees hurt and I really didn’t want to see another flight of stairs. For the next hour he was quiet and began to walk ahead of me. It has dawned on me that maybe he is embarrassed to walk next to me. Anyway at the train station I thought I need to make him happy, I feel so weak, I need to get better. So I went and bought food from M&S. I cannot even remember the last time I had a sandwhich. I obviously wanted a salad, maybe a sushi snack pack but that wasn’t going to cut it. I couldn’t choose one so went for the selection. (Why do they have to put calories in the front of the pack?) Now I did not eat all of the food in the photo, I had three triangles and half the pot of fruit. My mind was in meltdown. I messaged @flo.vs.ana and she put my mind at ease and I ate the late one. It tasted amazing.
My husband has since suggested getting Nando’s as I have been talking about it for so long, ever since it opened near us. My mind was screaming YOU MUST BE JOKING I HAVE HAD BREAD!! BREAD!! But I opened up told him how I felt and he is currently on his way to collect it. I can do this food is fuel, I am weak, I am not fat I am full. Even if I am not hungry I still need to have dinner. I am never hungry I can’t just never eat. 💪🏼 #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexiarecover #anorexiafighter #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorter #fearfood #anxiety #edrecovery
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